Memory Lane is A Lonely Place

It was just another lazy Monday afternoon, the sun was streaming through the white chiffon curtains so that it felt almost soft and creamy against her face. It put her in a good mood, ready to tackle the day's chores. She put aside the book she was reading and went to the closet to get bedsheets.

Usually she despised changing the sheets but she was unusually happy this afternoon.

She pulled out the cream colored, satin sheet set. She ran her fingers on the fabric. Silky, smooth and creamy, just like the sunlight had felt on her face.

She threw off the old sheets, and spread the fresh ones on the bed. The crisp and clean scent of freshly done laundry wafted through the air.

It made her smile...

But something didn't seem right.


She couldn't quite put her finger on it, but there was something.


At the back of her mind, trying to crawl back into her thoughts.


She tried to ignore it, but she couldn't.


"It's been a year...", she said to herself aloud.


She took a step back from the bed, like it was a time machine and it would suck her into itself. Walking away wouldn't help. It had already taken her back.

Back into his arms....


She had stopped thinking about him as much now. She hadn't forgotten him, she just chose not to think about him so often. She had stopped reading the hundreds of text messages over and over. Reading them now made her feel like he had been taunting her love for him, telling a needy woman what she wanted to hear and not even that, he had never been the expressive, romantic type. She had stopped going to his blog. Stopped refreshing the memories. Stopped hoping.

And it had worked.


She had convinced herself that she was never as important to him as she had thought she might be in the past, that it just wasn't possible. That he would never think about her and she shouldn't think about him either. That he must have forgotten about her a long time ago. That he was happy in his life and she wasn't even important enough to be a memory.

"Why did it all seem so real then?", she thought to herself many times, how could she have been so naive?

You'd think it would make her sad, but she was stronger than that, it actually made not having him in her life anymore, a lot easier. She had buried the memories, the thoughts, the love, deep in a distant, lonely corner of her heart, one that even she didn't have access to.

But it had all come flooding back that lazy Monday afternoon.